Friday, August 17, 2007

Day 198

Okay! Back to good standings with my 365!


This is in commemoration of my summer semester.
I did this the other day, when school ended.
This was my progress report from a couple weeks ago - I burned it in the street.

The reason I post this picture today is because not even half an hour ago, I learned that I passed my class for summer. I am (or should be) officially back on good standings with school. I am new resolve, and I somehow think this is stronger than I ever have had prior.

Also, I have nothing more to distract me from what NEEDS to be done.
There are many WANTS that surround me.
Some of these are UNCONTROLLABLE.
While others are quite CONTROLLABLE.


There's a lot of things I really want and care about.
And usually, these things are so completely out of my league they shouldn't be worth showing.
Yet, in some sort of sick irony, they're always close enough to touch - like I could take it anytime.
And there are always the specifics - the little things that spoil everything.
Usually, though, I pursue headlong - thinking "I can get anything I put my effort into getting. Nothing can stop me because I have commitment and resolve to my cause."
And because of stupid little circumstances, I've never gotten it.

This time, the thing I want is in the same situation.
My new approach is patience.
I know it's out of my league, and judging by several past experiences, the rate of failure is much higher than the rate of success. Therefore, my hypothesis is wrong, and judging by the scientific method, I should try something different. If I really want this, I'm going to stop, take a long breath, and wait for my turn.


If you don't have the ability, but you do have hope and agenda,
Your cause is worth your time.
But if you haven't been successful, just wait; you'll get your turn soon.
This is my new theory - let's test it.



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