Day 90

Ow... my head... seriously.
I didn't get much sleep last night.

I went to bed at my usual time (around midnight), no big deal.
But I was up 2-3 hours later hacking up a lung or coughing my brains out.
Your choice.
Anyway, I'm apparently REALLY allergic to something in my room, cause I've been coughing ceaselessly at night. This is the first time it kept me up. I haven't had energy all day. I almost hit another car on the way home from school cause my depth perception was trashed. I tried napping, but I had work, so it was somewhat futile. The rest of the day cruised by, but I am definitely getting an early sleep tonight.

I just learned finals are next week for the semester. Or at least begin next week.
My freshman year of college can be summed up as one long, yet thoroughly resounding screw up. I wasn't done with high school. I didn't learn enough, I wasn't prepared for college enough, and I wasn't ready to leave. But alas, my age dictates I must move on, and so I did. I've got the lowest grades I've ever recieved in my school career. I made a series of mistakes along the way and it hurt my GPA and my money. But they were necessary mistakes.

I recieved low grades because of the lack pushing and prodding college has on its students. Nobody says "go to school or else." So some days, I decided not to go. Nobody said "do your homework or else." So some days, I didn't do my homework. Push comes to shove, and my lack of concern put me in a bad place. But I've learned from my mistakes. I'll alleviate them throughout the summer semester and furthermore in the next Fall semester. I admit my defeat, and I will gain my victory and get out of this hell hole known as community college.


By the way, I finished my week of songs as of yesterday.
It was... different, that's for sure.
It's really easy to find inspiration in songs, but when you actually start walking around and looking, you realize that most of your songs focus on emotions and not anything that's particularly tangible. Some of the pics were a stretch, but others were a breeze. My favorite was definitely Such Great Heights; I had planned it all week. The most difficult was Tuesday, and I exchanged Marching Bands Of Manhattan - Death Cab For Cutie with I Want To Be Buried In Your Backyard because I wasn't able to reach my photo op location anytime this week. This little sub-project led me on an amazing adventure though, but that's a story for another time.

I will probably do this all over again.

Monday - [Phantom Limb - The Shins]
Tuesday - [I Can't Stop About It - Obadiah Parker]
Wednesday - [Out Of Gas - Modest Mouse]
Thursday - [Wild Sage - Mountain Goats]
Friday - [Such Great Heights - Iron & Wine]
Saturday - [The Owls Go - Architecture In Helsinki]
Sunday- [I Want To Be Buried In Your Backyard - Nightmare Of You]



My updates may not be substantial this week. I have work every single day except Friday, and with all the other stuff going on I may not be able to take GOOD pictures. But I promise an update per day regardless. Hopefully the rain that's supposed to last all week won't be too much.

But anyway, finals are coming up. Wish me luck.
Hello, stress, you're my old friend. Nice to meet you again.

Day 89

Is this thing of ours still on?
For I haven't slept a wink since you have been gone.
Now I want to be buried in your backyard,
And when the flowers grow just know you're still in my heart...
You're still in my heart.

Sunday: [I Want To Be Buried In Your Backyard - Nightmare Of You]

Day 88

Don't hide the treasures you've found in a hole in the ground.
How 'bout the tree back your house where the owls go!
The Owls Go...
Or in between the attic and the basement.
Somewhere it's not dark, dark, dark, dark.

Saturday: [The Owls Go - Architecture In Helsinki]

Day 87

They will see us waving from such great heights.
"Come down now," they'll say.
But everything looks perfect from far away.
"Come down now," but we'll stay.

Friday: [Such Great Heights - Iron & Wine]
{As made famous by Ben Gibbard; The Postal Service}
In memoriam.

Day 86

I lay down right where I fell, cold grass in my face.
And I hear the traffic, like the rhythm of the tides.
And I stare at the scrape on the heel of my hand
Til it doesn't sting so much and until the bloods dried.

And when somebody asks if I'm okay,
I don't know what to say.
And along the highway...
Where unlucky stray dogs bleed.
Wild sage growing in the weeds

Thursday: [Wild Sage - The Mountain Goats]

Day 85

Out of gas.
Out of road.
Out of car.
I don't know how I'm going to go, and
I had a drink the other day.
Opinions were like kittens,
I was giving them away.
I had a drink the other day...
I had a lot to say.

Wednesday: [Out Of Gas - Modest Mouse]

Day 84

I feel like a freak,
Cause I'm a guy
With desires that I can't satisfy.
Behind my every waking thought,
Well frustration is all that I've got.

Too much want now.
Too big a fan.
My wants are getting straight out of hand.
I want to feel, girl.
I want to touch, girl.
I think I want it much too much...

But do I look as hungry as I feel?
I don't know how much longer I can deal.
I'm going to stand on the rooftops,
I'm going to scream and shout it:
I can't stop thinking about it.

Tuesday: [I Can't Stop Thinking About It - Obadiah Parker]
{as made famous by: The Dirtbombs}

Day 83

So when they tap our Monday heads
To zombie-walk in our stead,
This town seems hardly worth the time.
And we'll no longer memorize or rhyme.
Too far along in our climb,
Stepping over what now towers to the sky,
With no connection.

Monday: [Phantom Limb - The Shins]

Day 82

This week, starting tomorrow,
All my pictures are going to be centered
Around a playlist of music of my choice.
I will no longer be dipping into my backlog of photos.

Day 81

Day 80

Oh sweet escapism, take me away from home.
This is the world I run away to every day.
I'm safer surrounded by terrible dangers facing a fake world than in my own life.
My fiction is more comfortable than my reality.

By the way, I did take this.
It's an in-game snapshot of World of Warcraft, taken by my computer.
It counts! =P

Day 79

Dew rests on the velvet grass.
Sunrise spews through the window's glass.
Shed our shoulders of all we bare,
And breath in the crisp morning air.

Day 78

Anything can be beautiful if that's the way we honestly see it.

Day 77

I've been lazy and trying to nap all day.
I am fairly confident in my likelihood of being sick.
My coughing has become worse, and I had the beginnings of a fever a few hours ago.
Don't worry, I'm combating it with a steady wave of
sleep deprivation, malnutrition, and stress.
Hahahah!

I've been having an increasingly more difficult time updating this consistently with actual daily updates lately. I've been taking a surplus of pictures on certain days, but not for the rest of the week. I end up using these surplus pictures because I'm too lazy to take one for a day. Though there's nothing wrong with this, because technically, as long as I put a photo per day, there are no problems. But I think my Photo 365 should be documenting my life more accurately, instead of more artistically.

I think my lack of constant daily updates is due to a lack of inspiration. I'm not going to lie, it's been kinda tough maintaining this thing daily with all the stuff I have going on in my life. I've taken 77 pictures since my birthday, which was almost two months ago. It took me two years to build a repertoire of 300 pictures prior to this little experiment. I'm not used to the constantness of this type of photographing. Sooner or later, I just get tired, or run out of things to take pictures of on any certain day.


So I'm going to be trying something I was thinking about midway through these first two months. I planned on losing interest in this at one point or the next, or at least losing inspiration. So I'm going to attempt and revitalize my inspiration with a theme.


Next week, all my updates will be focused around the theme of a playlist of songs. One song per day for the entire week. My daily little blurb will be replaced with the lyrics the picture was inspired from. I think this will make things interesting for me, and produce something nice to look at too. I'll be giving the playlist when I think of a nice set of songs. =]

Day 76

I really don't want to work tonight.
I don't have the energy to deal with work or people.
I think beginning to get sick with something.
I'm starting to cough, feeling very cold, and my head feels warmer than normal.
I'm going to try and get more rest this week.

Day 75

What a great day.
And it only cost me about 17$ and a gash in my forehead.
I love my friends.

Day 74

They think they're hot snot...
But they're actually just cold boogers.

You two people...
No.

You two assholes...
No.

You two heathens...
No.



You two mean less than dirt to me.
That is a privileged position in my book.
You really have to earn that kind of renown.
Stay out of our lives. The end.



On another note, I worked from the opening of the store this morning until 5. It's not a particularly long shift by any means, but the fact I had to wake up so early on a Saturday made things a lot more interesting. I really enjoyed it; it was very quiet and calm throughout the entire morning hours until about 3.
Yesterday I faked a picture because I was too freaked out to take a real one for the actual day. To be quite honest, I haven't taken a "daily picture" for about a week now. I've been slacking, but some good has come of it. I'm slowly improving the grades I've lost in my classes. Even though it's a moot point this late in the semester, any little bit of improvement could go a long way.
I tend to build up a large surplus of pictures because I take so many. I love to share them all, but that defies the point of this blog. I'll try and be more diligent with taking daily pictures.


We were having intensely severe thunderstorms yesterday, and I'm deathly afraid of them. There were even tornado touchdowns on the east side of town. I also didn't take my camera to the swing dance that I attended. Oh well. It was very fun though. =]
I wake up in a few hours to go to church with one of my best friends, along with our other cohorts. We'll be adventuring throughout the day. They have a meeting at one point, and I think I'll take a walk around TCU campus. Then we'll be hitting up a lovely restaurant, hopefully with Rachel's lovely madre, and I'll have a very memorable day.

Also, yes, for those who really haven't noticed, I am Christian. Yes I was Atheist, and yes I was Agnostic. Yes, before that, I was Catholic. This is now my past.
Yes, I'm currently attending a Baptist church (UBC, University Baptist Church) on Sundays. I have a very strong faith, more than I ever had when I was Catholic. This is because I have finally chosen a belief, and have not been coerced into believing something I don't care about. I'm very much happy finally and honestly believing in a God I can trust. I do not care what you think about my change in religion, because I know this change is benefit to me, not a blight.
I am happy.
You should be too.

Day 73

Tonight I went to the Paschal Big Band Dance.
It was fun, though not as exciting as the last time I went.
Fortunately though, I was able to dance a lot more.
Being social has unlimited perks, I'm living proof.
I have so many friends in so many places, and it's so cool how they're all interconnected.
I love all my friends.


This day, one year ago, I fell in love with a girl.
Also this day, one year ago, I was told a girl liked me.

Day 72

Bright sunny days.
The days when you can open all your doors and windows.
Let all the bad out, and let a breath of fresh air in.
(PS, this was with my camera phone.)

Day 71

It's a road that nobody really cares to walk.
And it's not particularly glamorous.
But in our culture, this is a necessity.

Day 70

It's a love I can only begin to describe.
Surrealistic interpretations of how things may seem.
I love the little things.
I am in love with that which is simple and ordinary
Because it is that which is unbelievable and extraordinary.

Day 69

Someone put bubbles in the fountain.
It was pretty tight.
Nothing happened today.

Day 68

Today was the best Easter of my life.
It was also inherently the first.
It's days like today that make me appreciate things more.

Day 67

It snowed today.
The day before Easter.

Day 66

I think the line I'm searching for is...
"I've got soul but I'm not a soldier."

Day 65

Coy?

Day 64

I really need to figure things out.

Day 63

"Motion Picture:
[n] a sequence of consecutive pictures of objects photographed in motion... in such rapid succession as to give the illusion of natural movement."


A picture is worth a thousand words.
But sometimes 1000 words aren't enough.
Cinematography is a form of photography,
And I won't neglect that.
Besides, no picture I could ever take could sum up this.

Day 62

Tonight I'm seeing my most favorite band.
Explosions In the Sky.

Hell yes I'm excited.

Day 61

Say what you will.
We'll have our fun.

Day 60

"Beauty is only skin deep."
There is a secret in this picture.